While previous to last night I had definitely considered moving back home, now...now it's a certainty. Sometime around the 15th of July, I will be calling my father and begging for help. I don't think I'll ever live it down though. It's one thing to mentally prepare for the possibility and hope something else happens, it's another to fully realize the inevitability. Basically, the electric bill came and as politely as possible, John said things had to change. I can't blame the man one bit. So, we have "rules" now, which is semi-bogus.
- No television.
- Everything MUST be unplugged when not in use.
- No lights, if at all possible.
- The air conditioning will remain at 80, no exceptions.
Now, two and three, I agree with, yet upon enacting two, I was told that was stupid. The exception to four is if John gets hot. Anyway, essentially he told my stepdad, "You've taken for years and years, how about you try giving something back." On one hand, I'm happy for John for growing balls, on the other hand...it's shitty timing. Just a week ago when Buddy and I said we should probably just call Dad, JOHN said, "Oh we'll make it work, totally, don't do that." Well, obviously, "making it work" which we were told would probably involve the above rules, plus we were not going to be able to go to Fayetteville or do anything unnecessary. With that said, John leaves lights on, ALL THE TIME, fidgets with the air, and went to Fayetteville twice in a weekend. Once was because he wanted a hot dog. WTF?! Then he said that he didn't have money for everyone to get something, and by "everyone" he means that Buddy and I get nothing. I mean, that's fine, but it feels like we don't count. Buddy and I haven't been to McKay's in let's see...something like five-ish months? But he and my stepdad go nearly every weekend, at least lately. Meh...I think it's just about John not having the money he wants...personally. To think though, that he said we were "ungrateful" two months ago, for wanting to get jobs and such. Oh well, within a month, hello Davenport! And to think...I didn't even touch on the library thing. Ok...the song...yeah, he sings like an angel, and DO NOT forget it. Easily the most emotional Robert Pattinson song, and Buddy's favorite.
I Was Broken - Robert Pattinson
I was lonely,
I was tired,
Now I'm bound.
My head is off the ground.
For a long time, I was so weary,
Tired of sound
I heard before
Knowing of the nights I'm out the door.
Haunted by the things I did
Stuck between the burning light
And the dusty shade.
Said I,
Used to think the past was dead and gone,
I was wrong,
So wrong,
Elements of blindness make you strong
Make you strong
In my time I melted into many forms,
From the day that I was born, no.
I know there's no place to hide.
Stuck between the burning shade and the fading light
I was broken
For a long time
But it's over now
Said I was broken
For a long time
But it's over now
Yes, and you
Yeah, you walk these lonely streets where people stand
People stand
And some people just can't
And I do pretend
I'm free from all the things that saved my friends
I was there until the end
I know I can take the moon
Stuck between the burning shade and the fading light
I was broken
For a long time
But it's over now
It's over now
Comments (3)
Wow. Hope you're able to work through your issues.
@abilene_piper_lg - Eh, I hope so...but most issues are financial, and that's just with everyone these days.
@possums_rock - Yeah. The economy sucks.